i'm a 19yo male living with my overprotective and stubborn parents. they always pushing me. My brother have a autism problem and sometimes my dad like to hit him when he disturb him. My dad like to says abusive words to his child including me "ALOT", it made me feel sad and unwanted. once he was angry at me for some reason i dont remember when he drove me to school. so i walked behind him, and at that time some primary school seniors bullied me behind him and he didn't even realize that im being bullied. all my past is a nightmare to me. and i dont want my future like so. after graduating from senior high shool, he offers me 2 college that i didnt want to join. so i choose one that far away from my home. and instead he puts me in the other school that is in my town. i feel like my life isnt my choice. my passion is in arts and my father didnt like it so much. once he said that he wanted to join me to arts school and the truth is he never did. now im living with him with no mother and brother because they're moving to my grandparents house. not because of divorce, at least im happy that my mother and my brother living far away from him. at home he likes to keep me out of the outside world. like he put me in jail, a family jail. i didnt interact with people much but i wanted to. he's like introverting me. i didnt talk to much with him like he do to me. like i said before, i like arts and I want to be a professional in this terms. since i've never ask him for something and he'll never grant my wishes, im asking you guys to help me. im begging you,because im tired living my life like this. i dont care if someone who think im making this story but it is my life, no one know my life even my best friends. again, im begging you guys please help me.